Thursday, May 19, 2005 | 1:41 AM
.tournamt's over. positive ppl say "aim for the stars, at least u'll reach the sky." pesimistic ppl said "the higher u place ur hopes, the harder u'll fall." why was it the latter for me? i lost control. i lost focus. then, i lost all hope. i juz know i'll lose my 30th position. i can juz feel it. i hate it.
When the world expected you at your best
and you held on so tightly to your pride.
you'll never know how hard it was to fall.
Fail at accomplishing the hard fought battle,
to taste defeat only at the end.
Hot tears stream endlessly,
no one hears the inaudible shatter of my heart.
crying's no use. but i just can't stop.
